The "Perfect" life of a Teenage Mom<3

Can’t help but love

lov3grace3 — Sun, 20 Feb 2011 02:45:06 +0000

Dear God,
I really wish I could hate a certain person. I wish I could not have any feelings towards that person. But no matter how had I try, I find that I can’t help but love them. Why is it that we love even the people we so despeately hate? It really seems that we really can’t help who we love.

Tagged: god, hate, love

Single Mommys = Strong Women

lov3grace3 — Fri, 28 Jan 2011 02:51:58 +0000

For all my Beautiful, Strong, Hard Working moms out there.
The ones who went to school with a baby on their lap.
The ones who worked the late night shift.
The mothers who never let their kids go to bed hungry…
Even if that meant going to bed hungry yourself.
The ones who went to work sick because you know that you can’t afford not to get paid; even if it was just one day.
The ones who begged for child suppprt…
And the ones that never asked at all.
The ones that never took it out on their Perfect children; no matter how hard life got.
To all the Strong Single Moms out there…
I’m proud of you. You’re more amazing then anyone else could ever even imagine. And never underrate yourselves.

Tagged: amazing, beautiful, hardship, hardworking, life, proud, single mom, strong

Remember to Breathe~~

lov3grace3 — Thu, 09 Sep 2010 04:42:16 +0000

Stop. Take a Moment. Breathe.
I’ve come across another hurdle that I have jump over. And the thing with hurdles is that once you start running towards them you can’t stop midway. Or else you’ll fall and bust your rear. But anyways bills are piling up:(
Phone bill = $50
Speeding ticket = $97
Ticket for ‘failing to yield’ (BTW I did stop so I didn’t even deserve this ticket)= $116
Daycare = $690 a month
And then I got into an accident that I don’t even think was a hundred percent my fault but of course they put the blame on me so I have to pay whatever damages to his car.
And last but not least car insurance.
How in the poo am I gonna pay for that. I’m already working two jobs and I’m looking for a third job on weekends so I can keep the first two. I’m still not getting help from the babys dad so I am officially stressed out and spread out pretty thin.

Tagged: bills, breathe, car accident, daycare, money, phone bill, stress, tickets, working

Happiness

lov3grace3 — Fri, 30 Jul 2010 08:16:29 +0000

Happiness does exist. So love yourself, love life, love those around you and stop worrying because it will find you. And all you single teenage mommas’ just like me, You Rock and you’re stronger than anyone else could ever know or even comprehend.

Tagged: believe, happiness, love, single mom, teen mom, teenage moms

breaking news

lov3grace3 — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 16:18:09 +0000

Today at 11:16 am my super genius daughter stood all be herself. She was holding onto to the couch and then let go and there she was standing…. This is really a proud proud day!! lol<3

Cruisin

lov3grace3 — Wed, 26 May 2010 20:43:24 +0000

A lot of parents tend to brag about their children. However, when I say my daughters a genius, I’m not saying because she’s my daughter but because it’s true. So far she’s hit every miletone early. Playing with her hands, moving things from hand to hand, crawling, pulling herself up, putting weight on her legs and many more that I wont name lol. But most recently, she has been cruising. For those of you who don’t know, cruising is where babies walk while holding on to something i.e table or couch. I’m so proud of my baby!! She is just too amazing:)

My highschool graduation was Sunday. So yay for me, I am officially a highschool grad!!!
SENIOR 2010!!

Tagged: 2010, baby, genius baby, graduation, milestones, senior

Hamster

lov3grace3 — Fri, 21 May 2010 16:33:58 +0000

I am buying a hamster. No one try to stop me or try to convince me otherwise. I am also going to name my hamster Shippo:)

Tagged: hamster

Black and Blue

lov3grace3 — Sun, 16 May 2010 01:36:16 +0000

I really don’t want to harbour any animosity towards anyone in my family. I love them, I really do. But they are making it really hard to look them in the face without wanting to punch them. They’re all saying “help your mom she needs you”, “look out for your brothers”, or the tens of thousands of other things that relate to me taking care of their problems. And I’ve been doing my best… I really have. To make their lives easier I’ve really been trying. I clean during the day, have dinner on the table by seven, and I do the dishes at night. But while they’re all expecting me to help them, what the hell are they doing to make my life just a little bit easier.

I’m home alone during the day. So there’s obviously no one there to watch Sunni, and even when my brothers and mother come home I’m still the one watching her when I’m trying to make their lives all peachy perfect. I’m not saying I’ve been perfect at making their lives perfect but at least I can say that I’ve been putting in the effort.

I really don’t think I can help them anymore. I have to help myself before I can help anyone else. And I am so tired. I’m tired of trying to make their lives easier. I’m tired of getting absolutely no gratitude. I’m tired of people think I’m a bad worthless daughter – and human being – because of their selfish one sided complaints. And I’m tired of them not giving damn about me.

Tagged: alone, animosity, burdens, complaints, disappointment, effort, family, perfect

When the rain falls~*~

lov3grace3 — Thu, 13 May 2010 21:12:18 +0000

I wonder how many people believe in reincarnation. I think it’s pretty amazing; being able to be reborn as something or someone else sounds wonderful. If you could be reincarnated what would you be??

I would pray to be a tree, a raindrop, or maybe even a blade of grass.

Because trees never leave; raindrops are never alone, and it’s the same for grass. But I think that if I was to be reborn as another person, in another time, at a different place, I would still want to be Sunni’s mom. It’s obviously no secret that for the past couple of weeks I’ve been feeling a little down; but it doesn’t change how I feel or view my super awesome daughter. She always seems to know when to give me her million dollar smile or when to give me her cute little hugs. She is truly amazing.

I’m starting to look into daycares. I’m pretty scared at the thought of leaving her with strangers but with me working full-time pretty soon I have no choice but to send her to one. I have to work; there’s no avoiding it. The cost of diapers, clothes, and food for Sunni is at an astronomical price!! And I also want this super awesome car so I have to start saving for it. *It’s such a pretty car!!*

Before I end this post… I want to urge everyone to go to youtube and look up “swagger wagon music video” it’s super cute and super funny lol:)

Today at 3:41pm Sunni took her first official crawling step!!! Woooo

Tagged: daughter, daycare, gloomy, reincarnation, work

Updates!!:)

lov3grace3 — Wed, 05 May 2010 08:29:50 +0000

So I guess there are some people who think I’m showing signs of depression. I admit I have bad days and I’ve been feeling down lately but I wouldn’t say that I’m depresssed. I still laugh and smile and all that good stuff. I really don’t have anything else to say in regards to that… except that me and the depression are totally not in the same sentence… and besides I’ve read about that post partum thing and I don’t have any sucidal or murderous thoughts. If I did I’d be the first to hand my baby over to the police and lock myself up.
On a brighter note:) Sunni is getting so big!!! My child is clearly gifted! She can kinda sorta life herself up from her play pin — Imma have to lower it pretty soon because even though she can’t lift herself up completely, I imagine that once she does she’s going to fall over the edge. She’s so amazing!!! So I can’t possibly be depressed when I have a perfect little angel for a daughter!!

Tagged: angel, depression, happy, teen mom